party

it is the pain within

that brings you loneliness

among even thousands of people

even the dearest of people

what throws you far from the crowd

is the thickness of the lie

it is the depth of what hurts

what you can see

but you don’t want to see

what you know

but you don’t want to know

it is that scream

that rage

within

that makes you sound so soft,

look so calm,

so fluid.

it is the scare

it is the wideness

of that scare

it is perhaps

that much transparency

that makes you invisible

that much clarity that makes you fragile.

what throws you far from the crowd

is the thickness of the lie

it is the humility

the humble pain

within

that brings you loneliness

among even thousands of people

even the dearest of the dearest of people.